This week was tough. Man, was it frustrating. And I’m so glad that it’s over. I really am. Saying that, I still don’t think I could call it my first bad week, even though it felt like it most of the time and all I wanted to do was be able to put it behind me.
This week was just a bit of a mess. Not because of the writing, thankfully, which is why I wouldn’t call it a bad week. But the writing still did suffer as a result, hence the frustration.
I was supposed to have a four day week but it turned into six days, purely because I felt like I was behind. (That’s because I was.) So far each week I have produced a word count of between 7,000 to 9,000 words. This week I didn’t even break 6,000, producing my lowest yet.
|Week 10||Word Total||Daily Words|
|7 Nov 2016||77,741||524|
|8 Nov 2016||78,262||521|
|9 Nov 2016||78,590||328|
|10 Nov 2016||81,043||2,453|
|11 Nov 2016||82,705||1,662|
|12 Nov 2016||83,096||391|
|Overall Total||Week’s Total|
A lot of this was a result of me starting dog walking. On Monday I took on a new client and it resulted in taking up a lot of my day, which isn’t a problem as it was totally worth it. Though it did mean I didn’t spend that much time writing. As a result, I worked the morning of my birthday. Throw in a truly god-awful night’s sleep and Wednesday suddenly becomes a half-day as well. In the end, only Thursday and Friday were full days of writing.
It also meant I couldn’t write a new mid-week post, which is annoying as I try to write at least one a fortnight, alongside the weekly overviews. I’m pleased to have written as much as I have so far on this blog and I would very much like to keep it going. Looks like I already have this Wednesday’s evening planned!
The frustration was also intensified as it meant I wasn’t as far along in a chapter that I’m eager to finish. This is through no fault of the chapter. In fact, I think it’s well paced, suspenseful and surprising. But I’m still eager to get onto the next few chapters, as they follow different narratives. (I talked about this last week, about how currently I’m enjoying writing the so-far lesser explored characters.)
Sure, I could skip the chapter. As tempting as it is, I don’t want to. If I did, it would only feel like a problem I was trying to avoid. And they never get resolved.
Despite how I felt about this week I should be proud of myself. Ten weeks in and I’m still driven to write and I’m disappointed when I don’t. Not only that but I’m now in a position which means I can stretch my savings that bit further and support myself writing full-time that bit longer, which makes me feel SO MUCH better about the long-term plan.
OK, so I originally said come Christmas I would review what I have and then decide whether or not to continue with Everborne but… yeah, I’m not going to do that any more.
I already know that I’m going to continue.
To say anything else would be pointless. There’s no question about it.
This is fantastic. My biggest fear two months ago was I would start in September and burn out before Christmas, and then have to realise my dream went horribly, hilariously wrong. Then what would I do? I appreciate I’ve still got a long way to go… and that’s exactly the point: I have a long way to go and I’m going.
I’m also hoping to have the first draft of what I’ve so far written completed and distributed to my reading circle by February. This I cannot wait for as I’ll start to get feedback. (I’m as excited as I’m petrified!) This also gives me a deadline to focus on, which I find helps.
So as negative as this week was, there were a lot of positives to take from it. I suppose it’s always easier to focus on the negatives. And, as with any disappointing day, I find it leaves me hungry and more determined for the next. That means I go into next week ravenous and resolute!
700 words into the post and I’ve yet to talk about what I actually wrote this week. So I will talk about something that I found interesting. I like my characters to be distanced from myself, even if I find them relatable. I suppose this is so I feel like they’re well-rounded and fully developed, not just peels of my own persona.
One of my characters shares a similar experience to one of my own. I believe I wrote it well but something makes me feel uncomfortable about it. I imagine it’s because it’s something that was very close, personal and painful to me. Even though it was, I hope it doesn’t read as Tom but as the character.
Among numerous, possibly infinite, other things, I will be highly interested to know how this comes across to my reading circle. (I say reading circle as if I already have one. Ha! If you would be interested, please send me a message. I have no criteria, though being able to read will help significantly; all I’d like is some honest feedback!) That’s still a couple of months off, though. Time to reflect also massively helps; I may find I feel completely different in a day, a week or a month’s time.
But all I can do for now is take it day by day, for as many days as it will take. Which is exactly what I’m doing.